Wednesday, March 7, 2018

"That" Relationship

Photo by Jon D Barker
There is nothing easy or simple about leaving an emotionally and/or physically abusive relationship. All the signs and red flags might be extremely obvious to those outside of the relationship, but it's a little harder to navigate when you're the one being made to feel like everything is your fault.

I have never publicly spoken about this relationship out of respect and out of wanting it all to just disappear. Now, in 2018, I know that the only one that deserves respect here is me. Not talking about it has let it continue to live in my head and affect me more it should have ever been allowed to.

Even now, I feel absolutely horrible writing about this.


Friday, March 2, 2018

What Smear Tests Are REALLY Like

Smear tests are one of those things that make a lot of women profusely sweat and perform extra kegels as they involuntarily clench their vaginas at the simple thought of them.

I have had a total of 13 smear tests in my lifetime. As your honorary twenty-something-year-old smear test expert (a totally-real title that is definitely not self-proclaimed), I thought it would be interesting & helpful for me to talk to you about what smear tests are really like.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

On Self-Respect in Relationships

Pic from September 2014
At my core, I'm a forgiving person. It takes a lot to push me over the edge and get me angry. My ability to be introspective & to understand myself and my feelings on an extremely deep level also allows for me to understand other people, sometimes in a way that they might not even understand themselves.

Monday, February 26, 2018

We Don't Have To Share Everything

I'm almost writing this as a bit of a video script, but I think it's also important to have it written down for days where I need a little reminder. It may seem odd for me to say this, considering the level of open conversations and sharing that I do throughout social media, but here's my truth:

We don't always have to talk about everything.


Thursday, January 4, 2018

New Year's Resolutions

I never used to like the idea of new year's resolutions because I sucked at setting them, and I sucked even more at keeping them. Every year I'd forget about my goals by the time April rolled around. By the time the end of the year came along, I'd be feeling like an utter failure.

Friday, December 22, 2017

The Big 50k

Holy crap, 50,000 subscribers!

I remember jumping for joy the day that I hit 100 views on my first YouTube video.

I was never afraid to create and put myself out there because I spent the larger part of every day getting picked apart by students and teachers in school. Sure, maybe I was making a fool of myself, but people would criticise me regardless. I had nothing to lose.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Taking Control Of My Life

Photo by Tim Chung @iamtimchung
I was never really good at anything in school. Granted, listening in class never took priority over trying to keep myself together while bullies threw bits of paper at me, stole my pens and kicked me under tables. School was pretty shit for me, and maybe that just added to the fact that I wasn't really interested in any of it. Not going to university was never an option from me, as it was just a given expectation in my family (though I did want to go anyway), but my lack of interest always worried my family.