Balancing (a VERY busy) life & YouTube

Oh man, here we go...

Friends, I have been sitting on this blog post idea for months. The truth is, and I'll tell you now in case you've come here for my "foolproof method to staying on top of everything" - if there is one, I haven't figured it out yet.

To catch you up, as I'm nowhere near narcissistic enough to assume you know what I do for a living, I work full-time in Content Marketing. This is a job I love, in an office I love, with people I absolutely adore... But the 8:30 am - 5:30 pm grind is a long one, especially where my responsibilities all rely on what I call my "creative juice".

I've just taken on a "side hustle" of sorts (because I needed something else to do? Why am I like this?) where I'll be regularly attending monthly "after-work-hours" events and taking pictures, recording a podcast & filming for video projects. This is super exciting and fun, but it also gives me a lot more to edit in my own time, as if I didn't already have YouTube filming & editing hanging over my head.

Now, I hear you. I'm obviously prioritising almost everything else over my YouTube channel, so am I really that surprised that once I get to the bottom of my work responsibilities, there's no "creative juice" left for filming & editing? No, I'm not surprised at all, actually.

When I was at university, I had all the time in the world to film & edit. I had classes 3 days a week & worked part-time another 3 days. In reality, my workload & number of hours I needed to be in work-mode and "switched on" for were incomparably less to what life requires from me now.

But here's the thing - it's only going to get harder, right?

Currently, I've got your standard 9-5 full-time job, a side hustle that, in truth, will only take up maybe 2 evenings of my life every month, and a personal life to live. But doesn't everyone?

Work aside, I'm trying to go to the gym 3 evenings per week. I'm batch cooking in the weekends to take the pressure off cooking dinner every day, and that's freed up a huge chunk of my time. I'm in a relationship that I naturally have to be present in, and that might take up another evening & usually the weekend. I also have friends that I want to spend time with, and that's not even taking into account the time it takes to shower, wash my hair, shave, laser my legs, dye my eyebrows, do my makeup every day, do laundry, clean my house, etc.

Don't think I'm listing things to make myself sound incredibly busy or anything. Rather, I'm just bewildered at the fact that I'm not special or any busier than most people.

How the hell do people do all this and stay on top of it? I don't have children, I'm not studying part-time, the way a lot of people are. In comparison, I'm probably in a much more free position than a lot of people. So what's the secret? Is there a special trick or a stash of time-turners I'm not aware of?

No. The problem is I make excuses. On Mondays, I'm too tired from the first day back at work and my Barre class that finished at 7 pm. On Tuesdays, I've made plans. On Wednesdays, I've gone to the gym and the "humpday" has me feeling depleted of energy. On Thursdays, we have social drinks at work, and I'll have one or two before heading home - that's if I don't then join my boyfriend at his own work drinks. On Fridays, I leave work for the gym again. Or I have a nail appointment. Or I've made plans to see friends. Or, frankly, I just need to fucking sleep.

It goes on, and on, and on, in circles, forever, until the end of time.

So this is where I'm at. No matter how many digital or physical diaries and calendars I keep, no matter how many Trello boards I have, no matter how many reminders I set, the only way for me to do something is to get off my ass do it. No excuses.

I prioritise everything else, don't I? I turn up to work and give 120% even on days when I'm tired, don't I? I take on side projects because I know they're valuable and important to the progression of my career, don't I? Why do I see YouTube any differently?

* There's something to be said for taking on too much & burning myself out. Balancing all this with self-care is my next juggling project...

It's not an elaborate step-by-step plan to getting my shit together... It's an effort to get off my ass and do things, instead of just talking about it. I don't think there's a special trick or a magical time-turner to any of it - just determination and discipline and a lot of coffee.

Thanks for being so patient with me while I've tried to figure shit out xxx

1 comment

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